04 May, 2010

No One's Ever Going to be Endlessly Alive

When I was younger (i.e. until like a year ago, let's be totally honest) I used to think that I should become a rock star because then I could move as much as I want and no one would notice. But then when I make videos like this I spend the entire time being like "STOP TOE-WALKING YOU LITTLE CREEP!" Because unfortunately it turns out there is some sort of divide between what looks DD and what looks like someone who just really likes music (and is awesome).

Disclaimer: I know that if you're a Diagnosis Police Officer you will be like, "There isn't any toe-walking in this video! You're the most made-up Autistic person ever!" That's because I'm trying not to. I mean, I know I shouldn't try not to, but I do, and maybe as I get older I'll be less of a twerp about this stuff.



I think I can't stand the way I feel
I can smash in all the doors but it's not real
And I know, I know, I know, I know how you feel
I know, I know, I know, I know it's not real

I think I can't help the way I am
You can hate it all you want but it's the same
And I know, I know, I know it's just how I am
I know, I know, I know we're not the same

I'm not real and that's okay
I'm really calm with my place
Remember, you are always tender
Remember, it doesn't mean what you think

Because no one's ever going to be endlessly alive

If my palms are the only sensitive parts
I have left I will scrape them on all the doors
'Cause I know, I know I've got to squeeze it out
The rest of me, I'll use it till it stops

I'm not real and that's okay
I'm really calm with my place
Remember, you are always tender
And remember, it doesn't mean what you think

Because no one's ever going to be endlessly alive

I think I can't stand the way I feel
I can smash in all your doors but it's not real
And I know, I know, I know, I know how you feel
But I know, I know, I know, I know it's not real

2 comments:

  1. omigod. The way you moved in this video totally reminds me of me.

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