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01 October, 2010

love post

a picture of me, a 21-year-old woman wearing a t-shirt and sweatshirt, holding up a notebook opened to a page that says: There are a lot of cynical things to say about this kind of love and they're all true

the notebook page now says: Nonetheless, I love you

Even if I don't even know you're here or you never comment and probably even if we had a fight I still love you

because we are part of each other

This isn't about your diagnosis or lack thereof. I was going to say you either know what I mean or you don't, but the truth is that maybe you think you are unqualified to belong

to anything but I swear if you think that way then we already belong to each other if you want us to.

If you are not expressing yourself somehow online I hope you will and I'm interested in what you have to say, and if you already are, thank you. I'm incredibly grateful for you.

You could just start talking to me on your own. This isn't charity although I believe in charity. I want to know you. I've learned that I can't help and support everyone, but I still want to try, and, barring that, I still want to know everyone.

If you don't contact me, and you never communicate with me about this stuff (or just can't), that doesn't make any difference to how much I love you. I love you because you are. And I think we're all brave, even when we think we are lazy and weak and a waste of space because we can't do the things we think we should be able to do. Regards, AWV. My email is A W F dot vivian at gmail dot com and if you are using a screenreader and it can't read that I apologize. Comment on another post and tell me this and I'll figure out how to write my email better.
Posted by Amanda Forest Vivian at 6:21 PM
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